Shadows of the heart: December 2005
Tuesday, December 20, 2005
「 what behind my shadow. Tuesday, December 20, 2005 」
-= A wolf is born again=-

I got a headache while I'm typing this entry... don't have any plans tomorrow but it be my bloody 15th birthday...I don't know what will happen tomorrow but I won't have any celebration, just gonna buy a can of Cali and drink it in our roof. Just gonna enjoy my mon's specially homemade sisig...

If you were wondering of something to think... I'd be thinking on how to fix another problem... but it is no longer by myself but our clan... Anime Pop Clan... we're really in a sticky position... the caln is being torn apart my time and destiny...

The moderators are leaving the clan one by one...by one...I'd really love to visit my old elementary friend... my one true bestfriend...


Monday, December 19, 2005
「 what behind my shadow. Monday, December 19, 2005 」
I've got a confession to make...

It all began when I walked the dog... I just wanted him to do his thing but before my very own eyes, blood was scattered on the floor and my leg too... before I knew it, my dog almost killed a little neko(cat). I got scratched by the cat who was really bloodied... my dog's nose and mouth was full of crimson red blood...

I can't believe I let my guard down, it almost took my sanity for a moment... and as adrenaline pumped into my blood,I let myself spin the dog while the cat was in his mouth... I tried to separate the cat and my dog...but all was futile, the cat was already weakened by the dog's furious bite... and that moment I got them separated... I'd put this memory behind if I can but it would still be fresh like a meat from a butcher shop...

I still bleed as my mind is being tortured by the looks of the bloody cat... staring with those cold yellow eyes...


Saturday, December 03, 2005
「 what behind my shadow. Saturday, December 03, 2005 」
"A wolf will always be a wolf
The shinsengumi will always be the shinsengumi
whatever you do, a manslayer will always be a manslayer"
-Saito Hajime

We cannot change what happened, but we can change what will happen, there are things that you will never ever change,everthing in this world will change and fall... but we will be sucessful if we constantly change. The death of man will never be prevented but we can prolong our lives, as we live everyday we can prolong our days and nights of our lives.

As they leave, we can choose to stay or go with them but whatever happens I will be standing here as always...
just waithing for your return...