Wednesday, January 31, 2007
*Sigh* Yeah, I'm single yet taken.
It's complicated for me.
We're apart yet my heart is being wielded by her existance in my heart.
Oh, our school [Rizal High School] just had another bomb threat. I'm making a theory about these so-called "Bomb Threats for Schools". Every bomb threat is made by the same person every 2 years.
I was drifting into another world when I heard the news. I rushed outside the classroom just to see the students panic to the Open Oval. I laughed at them, I didn't care if it was true or not. I only laughed at them, they should have already noticed and understood the situation. This mere threat was only a joke, a illusion.
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I was wondering what could I do in February 14. I could screw around with my bestfriend. I could put him into a tight situation with his crush. He's been crushing on her for 4 years already!
OR I could make another move on my Ex-Girlfriend/ Bestfriend. I'm always doing this tradition since my elementary days. Maybe it will work, maybe not. But I will make the move. I still love her. I don't care if my friends call me a Martyr for being just like this. I don't care what other people think of me.
But I will now reserve some for myself.
Sunday, January 28, 2007
-Uneasy and unknown-
I've been uneasy for 3 weeks straight. I know that we broke up, I really don't know who am I these days. Before we broke up, I thought that I was prepared to be left in the cold but I was wrong. I'm being someone that I don't know. I can't help it, I'm down because of the break-up. I already told myself that I will change. But it's really hard. I need the help of my friends, even her help is needed. Even if I couldn't be better, I would still want to change.I can't stand it being this distant, being uneasy, being irritable. I can't take it!
I could only take small steps. I can't become someone that everybody would like, I know I can't. I'm being more sarcastic than usual. I'm having my darker side control me. I'm trying to make it fade, even if it's only little. The break-up got the worst part of me, I've became the guy that could punch some random person's face for no reason at all. I'm still nice. I'm making so much facade that I think even myself is being fooled.
Wednesday, January 17, 2007
-Wandering Wolf-
hay... napaka hiram talaga ng first. mahirap ang first break-up. We, yep Me and my bestfriend, just broke up. Too late, I already knew this would happen. I felt that she likes her former-crush more than me. She's more alive with him than me. We decided that we should be bestfriends again.
I'll deal with the pain. I'm going to beat up those punks that fought with my friends. Don't worry about me, I'll be your normal friend again. So, I kissed a rose with a lot of thorns and was dipped in Liquid Nitrogen.
I can't control it, I really can't. I'm burning, I'm full of anger. I'm not angry at her, I'm angry at myself. I'm depressed.
-This was supposedly posted on January 11, 2007. Put your comments on my Friendster blog... feel free to ask.
