Shadows of the heart: February 2007
Saturday, February 03, 2007
「 what behind my shadow. Saturday, February 03, 2007 」

*Sigh* Yeah, I'm single yet taken.
It's complicated for me.
We're apart yet my heart is being wielded by her existance in my heart.

OR I could make another move on my Ex-Girlfriend/ Bestfriend. I'm always doing this tradition since my elementary days. Maybe it will work, maybe not. But I will make the move. I still love her. I don't care if my friends call me a Martyr for being just like this. I don't care what other people think of me.

But I will now reserve some for myself.


So... scratch that part. I've decided. I will not love her no longer. I realized that she isn't ready and she'll lead me into more trouble. Oh come on! Two weeks after the breakup, she already had another boyfriend? She said that I should change. DAMMIT! WHO THE HELL IS SHE TO TELL ME THAT! SHE IS THE ONE WHO NEEDS TO CHANGE! EVEN IF SHE'S IN A RELATION, SHE STILL BEFRIENDS MORE GUYS, AS IF THEY ARE MORE THAN FRIENDS.

I KNOW YOU ARE READING THIS. I'M TELLING YOU THIS, I DON'T CARE ABOUT THE PROMISE I TOLD YOU. YOU'RE NOT READY FOR A RELATION. YOU KNOW NOTHING ABOUT LOVE. IF YOU REALLY LOVED ME, YOU SHOULD HAVE LOVED ME FOR WHO I AM NOT LOVED ME FOR WHO I WAS.