I've been uneasy for 3 weeks straight. I know that we broke up, I really don't know who am I these days. Before we broke up, I thought that I was prepared to be left in the cold but I was wrong. I'm being someone that I don't know. I can't help it, I'm down because of the break-up. I already told myself that I will change. But it's really hard. I need the help of my friends, even her help is needed. Even if I couldn't be better, I would still want to change.I can't stand it being this distant, being uneasy, being irritable. I can't take it!

I could only take small steps. I can't become someone that everybody would like, I know I can't. I'm being more sarcastic than usual. I'm having my darker side control me. I'm trying to make it fade, even if it's only little. The break-up got the worst part of me, I've became the guy that could punch some random person's face for no reason at all. I'm still nice. I'm making so much facade that I think even myself is being fooled.